D and then disappointment

D picked me up in her car from work and we went to the Kew Motor Inn, our familiar haunt. Wary of the hostility that affected me last time we got stoned, I went down on her and then we fucked for a while. But it seemed a good idea to heighten sensation, so we smoked some pot and made out on the couch. I love to go down on D when I am stoned - everythings seems much larger, and happens more slowly, so I feel (whether or not it is true) that I am doing much more expert, delicate, and elaborate manouevres with my lips and tongue. I am also tireless. Later D and I talked briefly about this and she said that the first, non-stoned orgasm was incredible as well, so I am not sure if my perception that I am doing a much better job is matched on her side.

The order of events does not matter. An extraordinary highlight though was a multiple ejaculatory orgasm for me, when D was blowing me. Betweeh her lips, her teeth, her tongue, her hand, she was doing incredibly good things to my cock, and I entered that phase where I am definitely orgasming but not ejaculating - really a continuous orgasmic state. But then I did ejaculate, and D swallowed it all. I knew immediately that I was not finished though, and told her so, so she carried on, and pretty soon I ejaculated again, and again she swallowed. At this point she took a break but I was still hard, and interested to find out whether I would come again, so she went back to sucking my cock for a little while, and then gave up. I jerked off and did ejaculate again - a thin, watery, salty gruel.

Other acts and activities: a lot of ass-fucking, including sitting close to the edge of the bed so we could see ourselves in the mirror; D sat on my face while sucking my cock again; I went down on her any number of times; quite a lot of fingering, and also we admired her cunt in the mirror; some wonderful, delicate, slow fucking - and some wonderful, aggressive, hard and fast fucking. I think I spent more time licking D's ass, rimming her, tongue-fucking her, than I have before, and that was also intensely pleasurable for us both.

So that was D. The disappointment was that K had to cancel our arranged meeting with Z in my office, so I didn't get to go down on K and then fuck her with Z looking on. But I hope this will happen sometime soon. Z is rather mysterious, but also rather fascinating, and I do hope that she and I at least remain in contact, as she is exploring some of the same terrain that, in all our different ways, the other people who appear in this blog are exploring. K and Z, in particular, might have a lot to exchange notes about.

Today, Tuesday, looks to be void from a sexual point of view, and at least at the moment nothing is planned before Friday, when I hope to see D (unless A is available in which case I would choose to see her instead). I shall, however, try to fill in the days between now and then somehow.

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The last couple of days

I have just returned to my office after three busy hours with D in a nearby hotel, including a pseudo-DP in which I used the strap-on dildo with the harness to fuck her in the ass while I fucked her cunt with my cock.

But it is better to take the days in order, so I should first report on yesterday with A at her house - I was there for a little over three and a half hours and it was extremely pleasant and pleasurable. Most of the time was spent fucking, but we played around in the shower, she massaged my back, I went down on her quite a lot, and we also talked a good deal in advance of her departure on vacation. I will not see her again until the Labor Day weekend, and perhaps not even then.

A is, as I have mentioned before, very small - not much over five feet tall, and weighing barely a hundred pounds. Her body has, however, a complicated history, and that has left many marks and traces, which at this point I adore. I find most men's attitudes to women's bodies utterly puzzling. Before knowing A, however, I would have expressed my own attitude in terms of a strong preference for natural bodies and for the bodies of women who feel good about their own bodies and so act as if they are at home in them. A challenges that view of myself, though, because she has remade her own body in recent years, surgically and in other ways too, perhaps. Yet I find this remade body very attractive - in fact, adorable. Perhaps it is her own attitude to her body that is dominant here, but there are times when I feel a strange kind of veneration of her scars (and that really does sound a bit weird, I know!).

Today with D: she had her period, so going down on her was deliciously bloody, and by the end of our session there was blood just about everywhere. I daubed it on her thighs with my cock while fucking her, on her nipples with my hands, on my own nipples, on my lips. Going down on her for the first time I spent a little while just smelling her, but her cunt is so appetizing that I could not really wait. I suppose the first orgasm that she had took very little time, and then we could settle down to more rhythmic fucking, and eventually to ass-fucking. I had her on her back with her legs up high and my cock in her ass when I asked if she happened to have her little lipstick vibrator; she did. So I went and got her bag and she rooted around and dug it out. Then I went back to fucking her ass while she worked her clit with the vibrator until she came.

She gave me a lengthy blowjob and fucked me for a while, her on top. At some point I was fucking her ass standing up while she leaned against the dresser, and then we sat on the edge of the bed with her on top of me, my cock still in her ass. Then, after a rest, came the DP with the strap-on: first the smaller dildo, which I think she could barely feel, and then the much larger one, which had her groaning. I gave it to her as hard as I could, her kneeling up on the edge of the bed, me standing behind her, and then me lying on top of her. I came at least a bit, and eventually she told me to get off and give her a break! She is amazing, in her capacity to be fucked.

Later I was wearing her panties while she fingered my ass and sucked my cock as if it were a clit, but then she decided she wanted to sit on my face, and once she did that we were on a ride that didn't stop until we were both spent. She came in a series of huge spasms, and I kept at her as long as I could, then shifted to fingering her cunt, and then flipped her on her front and stuck my cock in her. She was shuddering away and then started milking my cock with fast, shallow thrusts of her pelvis, during which I swear I could feel her cunt muscles grabbing rhythmically at the head of my cock. Staying quite still myself, I came in several large spurts inside her.

A and D are very different, but both incredibly enjoyable sexual partners. The last week, seeing both of them twice and also enjoying that extremely erotic encounter with Z, has been a very good one.

[D again sent me an e-mail recalling highlights of our three hours together, which I add here:

Today was ultra hot. I don't have time to recap right now. But I've been recapping in my head since I floated back to my car this afternoon.

Top ten highlights

1. You pulling down my shirt and sucking my tits when we first entered the room.
2. Me fucking you on top and you telling me how beautiful my breasts are
3. You calling me a sexy bitch.
4. You fucking me and so quickly getting my ass ready to be fucked.
5. You staring at my ass when I was sucking your cock... and telling me about how much you love my ass.
6. Oh, the ass fucking standing up holding onto the furniture. Absolutely amazing.. and then sitting on you with your cock still in my ass. Rubbing up on your lap.
7. You licking me between my legs , flipping me over , munching at my clit and sucking up all my juices and blood. You smearing blood all over us.
8. Kneeling between your legs and licking your stomach and nipples.
9. Seeing your hot body in the strap on
10. You fucking me in the ass with the 8 inch and fucking my pussy with your hard cock. Aren't you just so proud of your D!
11. Rubbing on you with my underwear on , kissing your sweet mouth, then once you started sucking my tits, I just had to sit on your face.
12. Oh the joy of sitting on your face , watching it in the mirror , watching your fingers pinch and pull at my hard nipples, seeing your tongue at work, just parking myself on your naked body knowing you would soon make me come.
13. Absolutely one of the best, the last fuck when you held me down and mounted me from behind, told me I was going to make you come. Your arms were so strong and I couldn't move, couldn't catch my breath...

The whole afternoon felt like, I felt like I couldn't catch my breath. I was so out of control excited to be with you in that hot little room again. I was happy that you would get to eat me when I had my period once again. I was so completely hot for you. I could hardly contain myself as I waited in the lobby of the XXXXXXXXX, and the ride into the city and the night before getting stoned and thinking about the day ahead.

We have this amazing sexual chemisty that both of us have never experienced before, nor thought possible perhaps. I mean , even in my wildest fantasies I could never imagine the feeling of how completely turned on I am with you. You unleash in me this crazed hunger... I just want to be absorbed in our sex. I just want to brush my hair over your entire body and lick you from head to toe, kiss you with an open mouth, smell you and taste you. Look at you, run my fingers along the lines in your face and up and down your slim body. Lick and suck your cock for hours..... make you crazy!

Sorry about all that " I love you" stuff. We have to think of a whole new lexicon of words so that I can say things that might be more fitting. But until we think of other things I'm afraid those three words just blurt out from time to time. I'm sure you are use to it by now and besides, you are a very special person in my life. Who else can make me happy like that... you saw the after effects... my heart is still racing.

So, my ass and breasts thank you for all the wonderful compliments today. Oh, and my cunt too and feet. I think we had as much fun as anyone could ever possibly have in three short hours. It meant alot to me to be back in that hotel, just as it will when you get to come back to my home one day soon. You make me happy, no I stand corrected, having sex with you makes me happy.. how's that?

Boy, this was suppose to be a short one. I just type fast and have lots of things to say I guess... you got to eat my cunt today, and you ate it in many different positions... I sat on your face , you ate me the traditional way, you flipped me around and ate my ass, you got to stare at my pussy and finger me alot, you got to smell me over and over and suck on my clit till I came all over your face. You got to rub your entire face all over my cunt.

This was a very good day for you... as good as it gets... I want to kiss you again already.... D]

Z to A

Z came to my office, with the expectation that I would put on some sort of show for her. I had no real idea what to expect, and all I knew about her was that she was 30something, of mixed race, and in a wheelchair. She turned out to be a woman of really exceptional beauty, and the 45 or 50 minutes that she spent in my office deserve a detailed description.

We began with me in my desk-chair, her close by in her wheelchair. I unzipped and began to stroke my cock, at this point quite soft. We talked, discussing circumcision, work, whatever. She asked about how I liked to touch myself and I did my best to show her. After a while I asked if she would like to touch me, and she took over for a while, her large, strong hand doing a good job with my foreskin. She was surprised about how much pressure I liked. We talked about her other office visits - she had scheduled at least one a day during the whole week, and I think she said I was the fourth man whose office she had visited in order to be entertained.

She then proposed that we move out towards the middle of the room to have a bit more space, and I took one pants leg off so I could spread my legs. Then I sat on the chair while she manouevred her wheelchair between my legs. This way she had a better view, as she pointed out, and also better access to my balls and ass. We then went back to stroking my cock, though I did most of that, while she stroked my legs, my ass, my hips, my chest and sides, and played a bit with my nipples. I felt extremely happy and not at all self-conscious, as this was clearly what she wanted to see and do, she felt - as far as I could tell - completely relaxed and safe, and we were both having a good time.

After a while longer, she decided to sit on the floor, placing one leg on either side of my chair so that she could move in very close to my crotch. She took off her shirt, and I had the wonderful surprise of finding out that she did not shave under her arms - something that I find very, very sexy indeed. So at that point I was completely taken with her! Also such perfect breasts, a magnificent neck and shoulders, smooth skin of a most seductive, rich colour. Things then got a little more reciprocal, as I felt along her neck, and her shoulders, pinched her nipples, stroked her arms, and we also finally kissed. I was very turned on and very close to coming as a result, but she was in no hurry, so we slowed down. For perhaps twenty minutes we went back and forth between these various delightful acts - me touching myself, her touching my cock, her working my balls and perineum, her stroking my chest, my shoulders, my face, I doing the same to her, kissing. She sat as close in as she could, her armpits on my thighs, her head close to my cock. It was extremely gentle, sensual, very pleasurable, relaxing and yet also highly exciting. When she asked if I was now ready to come, it took just a little while to bring myself off, and of course I did not ejaculate very much given the morning's activities with D, so that may have disappointed her.

Afterwards she lay back on the floor and rested, and we talked for a little while, and then she hauled herself back into her wheelchair, and left. I asked if I was ever to see her again and she said 'No'. So that was that - but I have been thinking of her almost continuously ever since. And she did, very kindly, send me a picture of herself later on, showing much of what I had seen in my office - her breasts, her neck, her hair, her delicately cupped ear, one of those highly erotic armpits.

Today, A, for around two hours in a midtown hotel. Again, kissing led straight to fucking, and this time I never got to go down on her at all. We fucked for a long, long time, she also fingered herself to orgasm while I was fucking her, and then finally I climbed off and she went down on me for a while. Dry orgasms resulted from that, and then she sat on my cock and very rapidly made me come, which seemed to send her into a series of contractions, and her whole cunt was so amazingly tight and wet and alive I stayed very hard while she carried on using me for her pleasure. It was great. But finally she tired and I softened, and so we lay and chatted post-coitally until it was time to shower and leave.

A and Z - opposites in very many ways, but both extremely sexy. I am also extremely lucky to have been able to be with them yesterday and today.

D's recap of yesterday morning

D wrote me a recap of yesterday, which I reproduce here:


Yesterdays highlights for me.... hearing your voicemail when I got in my car... seeing you standing on the street... kissing you in the car... hearing your voice talk about blood... you sounded like you had some sort of a cold, your voice was deeper... it was turning me on.. then the torturous wait for you , never had I seen you and then you disappeared , it felt like hours.. I just couldn't wait to get at you...

And then when you kissed me in the parking lot at the Kew, we got stoned and you tried to take off my top, then I made you wait and you had your grey boxers on with that familiar hard on , but I had already seen the hard on outlined in your pants... then you just sat in front of me all pent up telling me you just wanted to see my nipples... but then I sat on the bed and somehow I was flipped over , you stood up and started to fuck me from behind, you told me that you were going to cum... but we continued to fuck and I think you eventually got on top of me and it was really intense and passionate... I remember your face rubbing against mine.. I remember smelling you and feeling your arms , your back , your ass... and then we stopped and you went down on me, but you said something like" you don't know how happy I am that I am about to go down on you" . But you were wrong, I did know, I always know that... this much I know about you....

Then you gave me this incredible orgasm... seeing you eating me like that , watching your hands on my breasts, there is nothing like it for me. I am just in total bliss... then I put on the strap on , that small pathetic dildo, the little cousin to the scary cousin... now the sexy part was when I put my black underwear on you , followed by my black skirt. I like to dress you ... I don't get to dress you or undress you for that matter... I definitely want to undress you... So you laid on your back and I climbed on top of you... but at some point I sat on your face , must have been before the strap on... anyway... I fucked you , watched the dildo disappear inside you.. heard you moaning for me... fuck me... fuck me.... D's fucking me... but that dildo kept falling off.. I'm sorry I didn't try the rings but I didn't know how to do it.. I'll try next time .. I promise to fuck you longer and harder...

Then you sucked my cock while I sat in the chair but of course I don't feel anything when you do that so I wanted you to suck on my clit. And you obeyed me, wanted to finger me while doing it but I always want to climax so I need my nipples pinched.. when you pinch my nipples I feel like I can orgasm just from that ... so you were good, licked me good , pulled and pinched at my breasts, I came hard and then I begged you to fuck me and that is when you just went crazy fucking me , pushing on my g spot.. then you exploded in three spasms... two before you started jerking off and then you grabbed your cock and sprayed me again. Some of it got in my mouth.. I remember tasting you...

But before this , we kissed alot and you were kissing my mouth and thinking that you were sucking your own cock... that was interesting.. you were totally gone.. I have never seen anything like it .. and you told me that kissing me was going to make you cum... that was very, very exciting...

And then I started sucking your cock and you were going absolutely crazy... you basically orgasmed through the whole thing... I thought you would completely lose your mind at one point ....your were moaning really loud and shuttering... oh god, oh god... it was hot.. then I think we 69 and you were just munching at my clit while your fingers were everywhere, I kept looking back in the mirror... it was really sexy to look at... but then you flipped me over and started asking me if I wanted to get fucked in the ass... it is basically then when I completely lose it... you whispering that in my ear in that deep voice of yours... I mean, come on... what am I suppose to say... No, please don't fuck me in the ass...

No, I will never say that, especially when you lube me with your tongue the way you did... spreading my cheeks so aggressively, rimming me with your tongue and then just shoving your cock up me.. taking me like that... I just laid there while you pounded me..knowing that soon you would be spraying your seed up my ass....

Then you did pretty good lying on top of me for awhile not moving , with your cock still inside of me. Then the force field... and then your problem solving skills, " I'll just go down on you". That worked like a charm! But first you sucked my tits and made me crazy, then you ate me as if you had never eaten me at all that day... you were starving for it ... so much you got a huge hard on and pounded me after, coming all over me again. I think you came three times within a period of an hour.

So , that's my recap. Hope you enjoyed it..I wish it was yesterday again... D

Midweek update

It is just after 2.00 pm on Wednesday and the next few hours promise to be interesting - a woman whose name is Z is coming by my office, and then a hour or so later I am to meet L, who I have been in e-mail touch with for a little while, for the first time.

But you can only blog the past. On Monday A and I had a magnificent two hours at the Liberty Inn, in which for her the highlights were me picking her up and propping her on the edge of the desk to fuck her, whish she thought was probably giving her serious G-spot stimulation because of the angle. She had her feet resting on the bed behind me, so they weren't dangling, and I tried to come in thrusting upwards as much as I could. Her other pick - when I went down on her towards the end of the time, and did something - but I don't really know what - that felt really good, and tripped a walloping orgasm for her. And after that I was ready to come - that is, to orgams with ejaculation, as I had had a couple of dry orgasms at least earlier on.

Two hours could not be better spent.

This morning, D. We got stoned and had amazing sex for almost two hours, and then the guilt, anxiety, panic kicked in for me, the fearfulness in her. So getting stoned is great for the sexual sensations because it hyper-intensifies them; but unfortunately it does the same for other feelings as well.

But the sex is the relevant thing here. One amazing segment had me sucking her cock (she had the strap-on, with a new, smaller dildo, and in fact had already given my ass a serious pounding by the point). I fingered her cunt, looking for the G-spot but treating it as her ass, which I was fingering as I sucked her cock. She asked me to lick her clit, so then I moved into clit-work with my lips and tongue while keeping on with the fingering. But D wanted both her nipples pinched, so I tongue-fucked her as deeply as I could while pinching her nipples, and worked her cunt, her clit, her cunt again and on and on, and she was shuddering and jittering and trembling. Then I fucked her, supporting myself on the arms of the chair she was sitting in, trying to get as extreme an upward angle as possible in thrusting. She carried on shuddering while I fucked her, and the sensations along the upper side of my cock and around the head were unbelievably intense. It took a good long time to build to the big orgasm with ejaculation, but when it was obviously about to happen I pulled out and came on D's belly and chest, and because I felt like there was another ejaculation to be had almost right away, I then jerked off for about thirty seconds or so and came again, just a couple of spurts. I have no idea how long this whole segment lasted, and being stoned makes all such judgements unreliable. It might have only been a couple of minutes, or twenty.

I fucked her in the ass, she fucked me in the ass, I got a long blowjob, I went down on her again, we did a lot of kissing while I was fingering her clit - one thing after another, with a few breaks.

Then the guilt, the anxiety, the emotional distance kicked in, and I was powerless to use sexual passion to quell it. I must have ejaculated more in the space of two hours today than just about any time in my life. Who knew it would be like this in middle-age?

[Here are some excerpts from an e-mail written by D, recalling some of the morning's pleasures:

I sure did have fun with you in bed. And you, I bet you don't remember half the things that you were doing but I'm telling you, there was one part where you were kissing my lips for like twenty minutes and thinking that you were giving yourself a blowjob. You said you felt like you were licking your own cock and you were shuttering and going crazy.

Right before I fucked you you had a similar reaction. You were moaning and shuttering when I was feeling you with the skirt on. I was running my hands over your hard on and feeling your ass, tugging on my underwear and you were completely gone. Then I got to fuck you and I'm telling you I should have just switched the dildos without you even knowing because you were begging for me to fuck you harder. You love when I fuck you! I was happy that you told me that you taught me how to fuck... I should know how to do it so expertly if you have been my teacher. Certainly that fuck in the chair after my climax will go down in history for us.... That fuck was crazy, it was like being in a vibrating body... out of control you make me with that cock of yours.. all the way up , pushing away at me...

I really loved talking dirty to you when you were sucking and licking my clit. I felt like I was just saying the things that you were thinking.. so it was really turning me on and I just love pushing my pussy into your face and pushing my thighs into you. Especially looking up in the mirror and watching you and ofcourse looking down at your eyes peaking up...

We just love chairs don't we! We really know how to have fun in a chair.. why there is the chair at the XXXXXXXXXXX, the chair in your office in XXXXXXXXX, the chair in your study at home... the chair in your kitchen... and now with the discovery of the g spot, there will be alot more chair action. Boy your arms are really going to get pumped up! We could be looking at a new weight lifting hobby for you... somehow bird watching I don't think your biceps get bigger.

... I still want to kiss you and be a friend to you and fuck you and spread my legs for you so that you can stick one finger up my cunt, a thumb in my ass and tongue me the way you did this morning. That was definately another highlight for me.

Wish we could do a quick drive by Friday morning.. Don't blame me for being greedy with the way you fucked my brains out today and licked my pussy relentlessly. I am on vacation after all and I don't know anyone else that I do this stuff with. No one as good as my xxxxxxx. I'm such a wicked girl really....

I have to wipe up between my legs... I'm still dripping all over and you shot a wad of cum in my hair, there is a huge chuck that's all sticky! Your cum is all over me right now... just what you like... sending me away with your cum all over my body... by the way... I do love when you stare at me and when you told me that you just want to get me naked. It was so genuine.. you just can't help it.. I lust after you just as much and will be thinking about you.... D

Country life, city life

A week ago, we went to stay in the country for five days, so four nights. With C that means one bout of sexual activity, a very pleasant but quiet session on the first night there: kissing, I went down on her for a while, fucking, she came, and then I had some difficulty reaching a final orgasm. I came a little in her mouth – she said a lot, but I am not sure she was really right about that – but stayed hard; some deft handjob work and kissing brought me off again, with more finality.

No man could reasonably complain about sex of this calibre after seventeen years, and I am sure that statistics would show that in terms of frequency too I am among the most fortunate of men. So I cannot argue that I have any unusual grounds for dissatisfaction – I do not. But the fact is that this kind of sex is all well and good, but lacks the passion, the intensity, the frenzy that I can feel with a woman like D; it lacks the frankness and intelligence and intimacy of sex with A. And I would like if possible to have sex of all these various kinds, as often as possible.

We came back from the country on Thursday evening, and C and I fucked that night before going to sleep – straightforward missionary, with her reaching orgasm relatively quickly and me following soon after. We have always been very good at this, helped by the fact that she is so highly orgasmic, comes easily from penetration provided that there is just a little friction between pubic bones to generate some clitoral stimulation as well, and my timing is good. Of all the women I have ever fucked, I don't think any have come so easily from straight fucking as C, though M – a girlfriend many many years ago, runs a close second.

Friday – time to makeup lost ground! I met A at a hotel around 10.45 am for a couple of hours. Very enjoyable. Once we were in bed we got straight down to fucking, me on top. A says that she never does this with anyone else, as she likes to have a guy go down on her so she knows she will get her orgasm. But with me, she says, she wants to fuck right away, and has no worries. And she is right not to worry as there is no way I would let her out of the room before eating her cunt for a while. And that, in fact, was what I did after we had fucked for a while. And once she had come, we resumed fucking and I came inside her.

A is the most intelligent fuck I have every had, by which I mean that she uses her cunt more cleverly, does more things with it, works the angles and tempi, is more subtle and sensitive. We do a lot of deep grinding work and she feels more with me than with other men (that is what she says, anyway); I feel more with her too. We are good at staying almost perfectly still and generating a calm around the sensations generated when I am deep inside. But we also fuck hard and fast, and she likes to be pounded as well. Shallow thrusting just at the entrance to her cunt, with just the head of my cock working her inner lips; long, piston strokes in which the whole length of my cock works the length of her cunt; delicate rocking back and forth while conjoined: it all works well with A. It is rarely crazed and frenzied, as sex sometimes is with D – but it is perhaps the best sex I have ever had in purely sensory terms. With A we are both completely present, there is no pretence, no role-playing of any sort, no bullshit. She becomes sexier as a result, and I am at this point a real devotee of her body and all its particularities.

After the fucking, we rested and then A gave me an extensive blowjob, producing climactic spasms but no ejaculation – and I did not ejaculate again in fact, though at some point we began fucking again, at first with her on top and then, after she remarked that she could not fuck as hard as I could, with me on top. We took another break after some hard banging, and when I suggested going down on her again she demurred, citing soreness. I showered, and left.

An hour and a half later I was with D in my office, in a building that was essentially deserted, so we stayed there for approaching three hours. Trying to catalogue in the correct order all the various acts and positions would be impossible and anyway tedious. We fucked on the couch first of all, and then I went down on her and took her to a good, solid climax. Then more fucking. At some point we fucked on the desk – D lying back and me standing, grasping her legs. She gave me a blowjob fairly early on, and another much later, at the end of our time. I went down on her a couple more times at least – one time with her sitting in the chair with her feet up on the desk, and me sitting between her legs lapping at her delicious cunt. I have spent more time eating and drinking at her cunt than anyone's, I believe, and there really are times when I feel like the juices are gushing from her. Of course, it is basically the only way that I can give her an orgasm, so that is a strong incentive to do it a lot.

What else? A lot of ass-fucking, first on the couch and then, at my urging, with her bending over my desk and me standing behind her. Both on the couch and the desk we did some cunt-fucking too, in violation of the hygiene regulations promulgated by her friend J. D would never go in for a threesome, so she is never going to be double-penetrated, but at least she can be serially penetrated by me, and I also stuck my thumb way up in her ass while fucking her cunt, and then did the same with a finger in her cunt when I was fucking her ass. The next step, I suppose, would be to use the strap-on to fuck one hole while my cock was in the other.

The strap-on came into play only briefly on Friday, when we swapped roles and I bent over the desk and D fucked me in the ass. But I just couldn't take it, it hurt just a bit too much, and so I asked her to stop. I soon felt like I had been a coward and should have carried on, but really I think I need to be a little more relaxed – stoned or drunk or both – and we should use a slightly smaller dildo (as we did the first time D fucked me, one she had borrowed from J).

After that we were nearing the end, and I think we each went down on the other and after she came we were done. I ejaculated twice in the course of the three hours – once inside her cunt when we were fucking on the couch, and once when I was fucking her ass when she was bent over the desk. That time, I let the first spurt come while inside her ass and then pulled our and sprayed the rest on her ass-crack and up her back. D loves to feel hot seed landing on her, and it is fun to watch for me too.

[D later sent me an e-mail about the afternoon in the office, which I reproduce here:

All I will say is , I am floating on air since I left you yesterday. There is something that you do to me , release in me, transmit to me... What the fuck is it???? I am just lucky to experience it, to have experienced it and to continue to experience it. You make me so incredibly turned on and so far in my life I have not been able to find a man who has that ability. I am completely besotted with you, you have this way of turning me into a wild sexual animal.

The problem with us or at least for me is that I want you so much after a session like yesterday. I stayed in bed till 8:30 this morning and for two hours I just laid there ruminating in my head the details of our office encounter... like seeing your cock for the first time, and knowing I would be putting it in my mouth, hearing you tell me that you will be going down on me knowing that soon my clit would be sucked into your mouth, feeling your hard cock inside of me, you shoving in deep all the way in, stuffing me as much as you could, the look on your face when you took a strand of my hair and delicately placed it across my thigh...

And all our incredible ass fucking... I did really enjoy being held down on your desk while you fucked my ass from behind. My feet were off the floor and wrapped around your ankles and you were just pounding me...but as rough as you can get with me it is always so delicately balanced with this gentle passion of ours... we are just incredible together... you are right , we feed off of each other in a way that is completely mutual... we are very fortunate in this way I think...

So that was Friday. Since then, nothing. But I have hopes of the week to come, with A, with D, and also with K, who I have not seen in a while.

Noontime with A

At noon I met up with A at a hotel for three hours of fun. Once unclothed and in bed we kissed for a while and then went straight to fucking - and what followed was one of the best fucks A and I have ever had. Over an hour of me inside her, with every tempo, angle, depth, rotation explored. Unbelievably good.

Eventually we rested, and then A gave me a long, clever blowjob, which came to its eventual climax with me coming in her mouth.

Another hiatus and then, as our time was coming to an end, A sucked my cock to get me hard and we fucked again, with me coming for a second time inside her.

Now I am back home awaiting C's arrival from the airport. I wonder if she wil be up to fucking when we go to bed tonight?

This may be the last such Sunday I have for a long, long time.

Another Sunday morning drive-by

D picked me up at 6.30 am and we went via Starbucks to a suitably discreet parking spot. Though other stuff went on, the only activity relevant to this blog is the sex, which was - as always with D - great. Slightly oddly, the first thing I did after some heavy kissing was to rim her asshole, and I thought we might go straight from that into ass-fucking, which would in a way have been convenient as it was the first day of her period and she was bleeding heavily. But D turned over and lay on her back and took off her panties and panty-liner and asked me to fuck her, so I did. She was tight and it took a little while to open her up and get all the way in, but with all her cunt-juice and all the blood she was very wet.

The fucking went on for a long time - some deep grinding, some slow piston strokes, some shallow, rapid fucking, some hard pounding. D never comes from straight intercourse, and at some point the urge to climax became too great for her (and the urge to help her to climax became too great for me) so I went down on her. It was incredibly bloody and we were not very well-equipped to deal with it, so we ended up bloodying my t-shirt and a sweater of hers, as well as staining the back of the folded-down seat of her car.

I did a little bit of tongue-fucking of her cunt, but mainly just worked her clit and pinched her nipples - the standard recipe for bringing her off, as regular readers will know by now. When D comes like that, her whole ass lifts up, she clenches her thighs together, and though I try to keep working her higher and higher and stretching the orgasm out, at some point she usually gives out and then it is time to ease up.

After that, a little more fucking with me on top, and then I lubed up her asshole and fucked her ass - again with me on top and her with her legs way back, so we could look at each other and kiss and talk while I probed her ass as deeply as I could. I took my time, and she was wonderfully tight and wet. Her ass seems to me to get more and more cunt-like each time. So finally it was time for me to come, and I worked on stretching the orgasm out as much as I could, with great success. It is difficult to describe exactly what happens, but basically if I bring myself close to the edge and then stay still, I can use my muscles to voluntarily ejaculate a small amount of come. Then I can fuck some more, and do the same thing again. Of course, I can't really tell what or how much I am ejaculating, as my cock is in her ass, but I have done this jerking off, and there I do spray a little seed. So I assume the same thing is going on in her ass. I did this several times, telling D what was going on and trying to adjust the angle of my cock in her ass so that we could both feel the pulses in my cock as I was ejaculating. And then I tumbled over the edge, into a wonderfully drawn out ejaculatory, fuck-ending climax: three or four big spurts of seed, which we could both feel very precisely.

The bloodied clothes are in the wash, and I must now get ready to go meet A at noon. My cock feels a little tender, but I am all cleaned up, and with a dose of Viagra I should be good to go.

Memory fails

Today I can remember pretty well - jerking off in the small hours, a gloryhole around eight this morning, and a visit to a whore this afternoon. Yesterday was Friday, and nothing to say about that. Thursday I had a couple of hours with A, which was spectacular as usual. But that was on my way home from the airport after eight days away in the company of my wife. And those eight days began with a lot of fucking, and more going down on her than I ever have managed to persuade her to allow before. But as the days progressed the pace slackened, and then she got a yeast infection, and at the end I felt like the prospects for quickening the intra-marital pace in order to have good reason to slacken off on the extra-marital activities were dim. So tomorrow I have D for a Sunday morning drive by and A again at noon. C returns in the evening.

Memory fails, though. I missed a few days back in June or early July, and the activities of those days are now gone for ever. Blogging ought to help concentrate the mind, but I don't think it does. Perhaps that is because no-one is reading, though. What I should do, when I have a little time, is to paste in various e-mails from J, A, D, and K, where they contribute to the task of recording my sexual adventures.

I realize that I have not fucked anyone new for a while now. But it seems as though I will have a visit later this week in my office from S, who wants to be eaten out on my desk. We will see if that actually happens. She is a CL recruit, and really CL has been the most productive of the sites for me.

I will try to report on tomorrow's activities promptly, for if I don't I may forget them. It seems, on occasion, that is these sexual episodes can slip so easily from memory, that they cannot really be worthwhile. Certainly they are not memorable - trivially. But that is to mistake the point of sex for a depressed, jaded, bored individual like me. It is the present that sex is about, and of course the present cannot extend into the future, as it inevitably becomes the past. When I am fucking I am in the here and now, more than at any other time. And when I am fucking I am also connected immediately with another person, in a way that is not otherwise true. But there are distinctions to be made, of course - the gloryholes are a different matter, as may be the whores too.

Sex is interesting to think about, and write about, if it is one's own sexual activities that are at issue. Why the hell should anyone else read about it, though? No reason, of course, and that is why they don't.

Midweek update

Tuesday I went out to A's for another margarita & marijuana session. I don't think I came at all, though she came a bunch of times when I was eating her out, which I did for a long while. Very, very good blowjob by her too with lots of dry orgasms.

Wednesday, I made the mistake of meeting D immediately after seeing my therapist, with whom I had a pretty heavy session, so D got the full brunt of myh ambivalence, guilt, etc which was then exacerbated by getting stoned. But between the arguments and hostile body-language on my part we had some great sex - especially a blowjob where I worked really hard both to control ejaculation and to stretch it out. So the result was that I think I came more than I ever have. D commented on how sour my semen tasted. After that I was pretty much out of action as far as fucking was concerned, but I did go down on D and help her to a couple of orgasms in a row - perhaps three - all of which were incredibly intense, according to her.

Thursday - a couple of hours not stoned and not drunk with A, and totally great. I went down on her, we fucked for a very long time, took a break, then a long blowjob, and finally she got on top and fucked me and dragged the seed out of me. An hour and a half or so of fairly continuous sex, all of the highest quality.

Tomorrow D is again going to be staying at a nearby hotel, so I shall go find her at midnight. What then happens will, I suppose, be the topic of my next post.

TGIM

K dropped by my office for what is by now almost a routine visit. After a few pleasantries and a little kissing, she takes off her panties and lies back on my desk. I sit in the desk chair and go to work on her delicious cunt. K is great to eat out because she tastes good, gets really wet, and takes a long, long time to come. According to her, with most guys she senses that they have had enough and so she lets them give up. I have never had enough! Obviously I want her to come, and once she has come I am content to stop. But I would also be content to carry on as well. It is the most delightful way of losing oneself to become totally absorbed in sucking and licking. If I ever felt any reluctance or hesitation I am beyond that now.

After the oral, fucking - and very good too despite the compulsory condom. We talked quite a bit while fucking, and found some new angles.

K left and I went and scrubbed mysefl before heading out to Queens, where D was waiting for me. Same principle - she lies back on the desk while I have a go at her, completely honestly. Then I fuck her, and that is great!

A standard but very rewarding day.

You can blog, or you can fuck; you can't do both

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Too busy fucking to blog

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A whole week's worth

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Sunday morning drive-by

D picked me up a bit before 6.30 am and we drove to our standard drive-by spot and got in the back, for approaching two hours of oral sex and fucking. I went down on her, and then we fucked, and then she gave me a lengthy and incredible blowjob, and I swear it was like I was ejaculating with each movement of her mouth on my cock-head. The intensity is incredible, and my cock is spasming every couple of seconds as if I am spurting in her mouth, though I am not. If she told me I was, I would believe her, so that is how similar it feels to the full-blown ejaculatory orgasm.

A little break and then some fucking, and then I went down on her again, and had a wonderful time being very precise with my tongue on her clit, partly under her direction, so she could have another big orgasm. Then some serious steady fucking, and then more blowjob work for her. Finally we lubed up my asshole and she stuck a finger in and then jerked me off. Not a great orgasm but a good one.

That is it for the weekend I guess. Tomorrow, if everything works out, I will get to spend a little time with K in the early part of the morning, with A in the late morning, and then see D in the afternoon. My three favorite fucks in one day - a very exciting prospect.

The most extraordinary night

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Wednesday, Thursday - A days

A was supposed to arrive in time for some fucking before I went to talk to my therapist yesterday, but she was delayed, and so met me when I came out at the end of a session devoted in part to sex addiction.

We then came back and had a couple of hours of spectacular sex, including some really great blowjob work by A.

Slightly strange, but A and K got together for drinks that evening. Sufficiently many drinks, in fact, that A was a little hungover this morning and so our session at her house got off to a late start. A was also not on top form, with the exertions of the week laid on top of whatever this hereditary bladder problem of hers is. So at some point, after some delightful playing around, we gave up and went and sat in the sunshine in the garden. But before that I had been blindfolded and tied up, and while that didn't work as successfully as it might have, it was still a lot of fun.

A is a woman who reaches for more than she can realistically consume, sexually. But that is entirely good and to be encouraged - if only more women were that way! If she sometimes over-reaches, so what?

Tomorrow D is coming into town to stay at a nearby hotel, so we should manage some serious sexual activity in the afternoon, perhaps during part of the evening, and then for much of the night. The last time we did this was just at the time I began this journal, and is in fact recorded in the first post, I believe. That time D was very stoned and I was not, but this time I think we will try to even the playing field a little in that regard. I am looking forward to it. A may be my favorite fuck, but D is surely the most redoubtable, taking just about everything that I can give her. A is more fragile, a word that could never apply to D, J, or K. But they are also very different from each other.

J I have not seen for a while now, and it is not clear when I shall do so again. But whenever that is, I am sure it will be the same high-energy sexual encounter as usual with her. She too can take a lot of pounding without protest, which I confess I do enjoy.

A busy afternoon, evening, and night is in prospect; I should get some sleep. It is probably a good thing that I abandoned my plan to see D today, as I will get plenty of time with her tomorrow.

A little later . . .

K has come and gone, in under an hour: a brief chat, and then she lay back on the desk while I ate her out, and then I fucked her solidly and came. Efficient, fun, friendly. But I confess I feel rather exhausted at this point. I think I shall go home and rest.

Tomorrow A is due early so we can fuck before I go see my therapist. Then more sex afterwards as well, so pretty much the entire morning will be devoted to A except for the 45 minutes of talk. A is amused by the idea of flanking my therapy with fucking.

I shall see A again in the late afternoon, though perhaps only for a walk in the park or similar. Indeed, A is my preoccupation this week, as I shall visit her on Thursday in the morning (and see D on Thursday afternoon), and then see her again on Friday, location to be determined.

But now, rest.

The fun begins . . .

Yesterday (that is, Monday) C and I had a nice fuck in the morning, ahd she came with her usual efficiency. I pulled out and she jerked me off, which was fun. So that was the last marital sex-act I shall have until we are together on vacation around the 18th July, which is five weeks or so away. In the meantime . . .

I am sitting in my office writing this, waiting for K and another of our lunchtime office specials. The morning - well, from about 9.45 until 12.15 - I spent at a hotel with A. So I am not sure what sort of performance I shall be able to give for K. What did we do? Fuck right away, and for a long time. A does not orgasm from fucking alone, so she helped herself along with her hand while I stuck a finger a little way up her ass. We fucked some more, and then I went down on her.

Then she sucked my cock, expertly, and I was very close to coming, and then we rested. I then went down on her again, and after she came we fucked, and I came inside her. She described it as a 'new high' and it is true that it was as long as we have spent togehter, and more relaxed.

Kate is a little late - but the longer I have to recover the better, I guess.

Relatively quiet times

After K's delightful office visit yesterday lunchtime the rest of the day was quiet. But at bedtime C was game for a fuck, though she had to resort to Astroglide to provide the necessary lubrication. A perfectly decent, but routine, missionary fuck followed.

Today I felt the need for some release, so I went by a gloryhole and got a quick, efficient blowjob.

The weekend will be relatively quiet, I am sure. But this is in a way the lull before the storm, as from Tuesday I will be intensely active, at least if things go as planned. At the moment the plan is as follows:

Tuesday morning - A, for a couple of hours.
Tuesday late afternoon and evening - D
Wednesday morning - A again, either side of chatting to my therapist
Wednesday late afternoon - more A
Thursday morning - to A's house for the first time
Thursday afternoon - D (but this may not work out)
Friday - A in the morning, and D in the afternoon.

K is nowhere in this plan at the moment, but I hope to fit her in on either Tuesday or Wednesday for another office visit or similar.

Obviously these plans are completely crazy, but it will be interesting to see if they come off successfully. I will surely deplete my stock of Viagra.

Thursday - disappointment, pleasure

The disappointment was that A had to cancel our arrangement. I have not been with her in a while now, and almost certainly won't see her until next Tuesday morning.

What to do? Well, why not repeat yesterday's office visit from K? So I e-mailed her and she proposed one o-clock, and around then she turned up for a nice little session. Much the same as yesterday, but preceded by a pleasant little blowjob. She also came more quickly when I was eating her out, and later she said that she had never come so quickly. She also said that before me she had never really been able to come from oral. So that is good. Then we fucked, first with her still on the desk and then on the floor. As yesterday, I came after not too long. A most satisfying interlude.

So K is having orgasms from oral, which she has not in the past; and she is coming more quickly. I don't believe this has very much to do with technique, and much more to do with attitude. Obviously it helps to have a mobile tongue, full lips, good fine-motor skills, and so on. But enthusiasm and delight and unselfishness are more important. With K I would guess that her relative slowness to orgasm and difficulty acheiving it has quite a bit to do with relaxation, and like many women she has to struggle against her own performance anxiety. I want her to believe that my pleasure and her pleasure and mingled, that I take pleasure by giving it, that I am not assessing her, or judging her. I believe these things myself. Sex makes me happy because of the directness of connection with another person's sensations and feelings and thoughts. K is only 26 or so, and she is getting something of the eye- and mind-opening experiences that D, for example, had to wait until she was 45 to have. What the fuck do men think they are doing? What, in fact, did I think I was doing most of my life?

Well, that is all a topic for longer discussion at a later date. K is really delectable, and obviously these little sessions give her as much pleasure as they give me.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring.

At the office

After chatting to my therapist for 45 minutes, I headed to my office, to hook up with K. After a few brief preliminaries she lay back on my desk while I sat in my chair and went to work on her with my lips and tongue. She is letting her hair grow back, having been shaved, so there is a certain amount of stubble, but I don't mind that. K takes a long time to come, so I could spend a long time with my head between her legs, and she does get delightfully wet. She has one of the mildest smelling and tasting cunts I have ever come across, and I would happily have her a bit more pungent. But it was great fun, and she eventually came. Then I put on a condom and fucked her, me standing and her still lying on the desk. I have had blowjobs in this office before, and fucked Janice on the floor once or possibly twice, but I have never fucked anyone on the desk (though of course I have in my other office, where D has been fucked just about everywhere, including the desk). So I fucked K for a decent amount of time and came, and then we sat and chatted about sex. K is game to try just about anything, so perhaps we will go together to the 'midweek playgroup' sometime.

It is only noon, so I suppose something might develop later on today. Yesterday was entirely void of sex. Tomorrow I am hoping to see A.

Update:

I was still feeling a bit restless, so I went to an Asian spa to be worked on by Senny. Table shower, then a long massage, and then a nifty little handjob. Very pleasant, and certainly something I would do again. $70 for the shower, massage, etc, and I gave Senny $100. So not free and not cheap - but sex is a lot more fun than money.

TGIM: Thank God It's Monday

The weekend over, the alibis kick in. But before heading off for 'the office' I was offered a handjob by C, which was routine and efficient.

A and I had planned to meet around 9.30 or 10.00 but she cancelled for medical reasons, so the morning was (that marital handjob apart) a wash. But I saw D in the afternoon for about two-and-a-half hours. A little fuck, and then I went down on her, then a lot more fucking, then she sat on my face, then an extensive fuck with D on top, then a blowjob, then more fucking until I pulled out and came all over her belly. Much of this was observed close-up in various mirrors - in the headboard, along one wall next to the bed, on the ceiling.

Round 2, after she hardened me up in her mouth: fucking with me on top, until D asks to be fucked in the ass. Astroglide applied, I opened her up and gave her a good, long, hard ass-fuck until I came. She, of course, was by then really turned on and wanted to come again, so I went down on her and helped her come.

D is, as I have said before, the perfect mistress. She is now totally addicted to anal.

Tomorrow, nothing planned. Nor for Wednesday as yet, though K is a possibility. Thursday will be A. C leaves for Europe at the beginning of next week, and then the real fun starts again! I can hardly wait.

Thursday June 1st - a memorable day

Thursday was remarkable. D picked me up early and we headed to my office, where we had 45 minutes or so of wonderful sex: I sat her in the chair and hooked her legs over the arms and ate her out, pinching her nipples as is just about essential if she is to orgasm; then we fucked on the couch, me on top; then I put her on the desk and fucked her standing up, and then flipped her over and fucked her that way for a little while, but that didn't work so well. Then I went off to a meeting but fortunately could slip out and get back to my office for some more. A blowjob, me in the chair and D kneeling between my legs on the floor; then a make-out session on the couch, which slowly built up to me eating her out again; then she made me lie down so she could sit on my face, and went completely crazy, especially once I got fingers in her cunt and ass; but I couldn't stay hard so no fucking, though I really would have liked to finish off inside her.

I went back to the meeting for a little while, and then D and I headed off to our standard no-tell motel. A mirrored room to admire ourselves. Two-and-a-half hours or so of the standard repertoire, but all excellent. A judicious dose of Viagra restored me to full function, and I remained pretty hard even after I came for the first time. That was at the end of one of the sweetest and best ass-fucks I have ever had. D was an anal virgin not that long ago, but now she loves it. I really do like to fuck her in the ass, and it feels very intimate. So - a lot of fucking, a lot of oral, and I ended up in one of my strange 'edge' states when I am convinced I am about to ejaculate but never do, instead just having a series of dry orgasms. I really did need to come fully, though, so in the end I jerked off while D watched and lay next to me, spraying all over my chest and belly. She then lay on top of me and smeared herself with my seed. And of course that just turned her on so she wanted to come again, so I went down on her and helped her come, and in fact pushed her into a series of orgasms.

All that by around two in the afternoon. Then a shower, and off to meet A for a couple of hours. Again I began by going down on her, which is great as she gets incredibly wet. Then a very long hard fuck, with lots of deep grinding, some hard pounding, on and on. Sweat pouring off the both of us, but especially her. Then we rested for a little while, talking while fucking gently. A told me that she knew I had been with someone else earlier because she could smell it on my face! So I should do a better job washing my face in the future.

After a while we stopped fucking and then A gave me an incredible blowjob, beginning with a Wintergreen Altoid in her mouth, which creates this incredible sensation of hot and cold on the head of my cock. This blowjob went on a long time and eventually A picked up the pace and I came in her mouth.

A great day.

Midweek update II

One week later - I have not been able to keep up the blog in the interim. And have ten minutes now to report.

Last Wednesday - a lunchtime quickie with A, very brief thanks to her being late. But still most excellent fucking.

Thursday - A again, for a couple of hours. Lots of talk, lots of fucking, all fairly standard. She remains my favourite fuck of the moment.

Friday - D. Under interrogation I told her about A, J, and K. This was after some serious fucking, including anal. Then the tears and recriminations. And then I went down on her and she came spectacularly hard, I am sure because of the emotional stress and fear that it might be the last time, etc.

Memorial Day Weekend - nothing but the wife.

Tuesday - D. First talk, then oral, fucking, blowjob, more fucking, anal. If it wasn't for the emotional overinvestment she really would be the perfect mistress. I was meant to meet A in the evenign but she had to cancel, so I had a long conversation in a dive bar with K. No sex, but a few kisses.

Wednesday - nice little session with the wife this morning.

Tomorrow, I am set to see A in the late afternoon, and perhaps D at lunchtime.

Midweek update

A fairly quiet week so far. Monday afternoon I spend with A in a hotel room - a little under three hours. Straight into fucking with me on top, which in later discussion we both agreed is unjustly denigrated as boring. It is really her favorite position. Then we took a break. Then I fingered her and gave her a rimming, and we fucked some more. By using my hand to apply some extra pressure on her clit while fucking I helped her to come wildly around my cock, which was a lot of fun.

Next I think was a pretty extensive blowjob, and then I went down on her for a while. And then a final fuck, me on top again. Wait, but A also asked me to fuck her from behind - turns out that she has usually found that painful because she feels a man's cock banging into her cervix and that is unpleasant. But it was fine with me she said. I finished on top again, pulling out and coming all over her. She was amused because I came a little and told her "I'm not done yet" and then, with a little help from her, came a lot more, and very vigorously. Wonderful.

So that was a really excellent afternoon. Lunchtime today we are meeting for a quickie to recap the highlights!

Yesterday I spend mainly with C - fucking interrupted by a phone call, so we got to start all over again. I did go down on her just for little while, but of course if I suddenly become a fanatic for that with her, and also deploy many new techniques, she may become a bit suspicious. That would be bad. So with C it will take a while to make things more exciting. The fucking, though, is really good, and of course I have no problem getting and staying hard, and can come easily. That doesn't seem to be reliably true with anyone else, though of course I haven't really tried operating without some pharmaceutical assistance for a while.

Apart from a lunchtime quickie with A I have nothing set today or tomorrow. Friday, assuming it comes off, I should have three hours or so with D, the blowjob queen. Once the weekend is over, it will be only two weeks or so until C leaves again, and I can step up the pace. But it may be time for a parting of the ways with D - I don't have the enthusiasm that I had before. Still, Friday may rekindle that.

An uneventful weekend

A weekend with nothing but the wife, and not a lot of activity on that front either. On Saturday morning C came back from a run hot and sweaty, which I like, and offered to let me fuck her from behind standing up which I did for a while. She was pretty tight but good. After a while we moved to the bed for standard fucking with me on top.

Today will be more fun. C is out running fight now and maybe will return for another sweaty fuck in a little while. This afternoon I am meeting A for three hours or so in a hotel room. A has complained a little about soreness after our sessions, so perhaps I will keep the hard grinding to a minimum and spend a lot of time eating her out, and also rimming, which I haven't done yet but which she says she likes a lot. I think with A we will get round to anal at some point, as she isn't totally against the idea - but she is a small woman so it may be that it can never be anything but painful for her.

Beyond today things look pretty empty - but I am planning to spend at least a few hours with D on Friday.

Hard to keep up

Right, so now it is late on Friday. K came here on Thursday morning and we had a couple of hours together, but she was obviously a bit tense and so not able to orgasm even though I worked fairly hard at that, orally. But a lot of good fucking all the same, and an entirely honest and delightful time.

This morning I went to see J and we had a great time - exceptional fucking, especially from behind. I also spent a while sucking and licking her clit, which was a lot of fun. But it was the fucking that was spectacular this morning - she can take a lot of pounding. I am slightly concerned that there is some deep and disturbing reason why I find it preferable to fuck her from behind, but as she enjoys that at lot and I think that is also the only position in which she has come from fucking with me, perhaps there is no issue here.

A little shopping, and then home to await C, who arrived in time for us to have a really good fuck before the kid came home from school. Me on top, then her on top, some cocksucking, more fucking, eventually a big ejaculatory orgasm in her mouth. I love her, which is not true of anyone else I fuck. She comes easily from fucking, which is also not true of anyone else, really, though A approximates. Today I had a continuous low-level orgasm with her, and I suppose there were times when I was holding back - but also times when I was actively seeking to spray. Net result - little orgasms, some ejaculations, at least according to C who said she could taste my come, and what I thought was pretty much the final orgasm and ejaculation. But then I was still hard and wanted more, and C kindly jerked me off, sucked me, and I came again, a lot. Kept coming too when jerked off some more. Very intense, strange, deep, powerful. Love does make a difference.

I would look for more tonight, but jetlag has deprived me of that chance. Still, I hope we will fuck some more over the weekend. And then A on Monday.

Tuesday morning

So shortly after the kids left for school D came by, and stayed for a little under six hours. Lots of oral sex, lots of fucking, toast and coffee, more oral, more fucking. The most intense part for me was the blowjobs - two separate times when I sat up and spread my legs and D lay between them and went to work on my cock. She is far and away the best I have ever had. I didn't ejaculate either time, but had a whole series of the shuddering, dry orgasms that seems to have become almost standard when she sucks my cock. I go pretty crazy.

Fairly early on I was fucking her and pulled out to come on her, and only half-came. Then I jerked off a bit and she asked me to come on her face. Now I don't really get the facial cumshot as a piece of pornography, and I have never wanted to do it, or asked to do it. But D asked me, and I obliged, and immediately found it very erotic - I came a lot, in her eyes and nose and mouth, on her neck, in her hair. I think we will both remember that for a long time.

I came again later in her ass.

But that was it for Tuesday, and today (Wednesday) I have had nothing but phone sex with D this morning. Really, it is already Thursday, and K will be here in a few hours for a little session before she and I go to work. Meanwhile M, who I have not had any contact with for a couple of months at least, found me on IM and we then chatted on the phone for a while. She is running a string of guys for casual sex, but as she doesn't fuck it is all 'making out', as she puts it, ie jerking them off, kissing, having them go down on her, blowing them, etc. She never orgasms except when masturbating, but I don't think she is demanding enough of these guys. I suspect she is like K: she takes a long time to come, finds it a bit difficult to relax, is a little shy at just taking what she needs. If I could have a go at her, I would show her what can reasonably be expected of a guy, what level of attention and devotion is possible, how much I enjoy going down on a woman and eating her out, and so on. All the things that J and D and A and K have learned from me.

K, in an e-mail, told me that she has a threesome set for next week, so I will have to quiz her about that and report back. She will be fun for the guys, but I am worried that she won't have too much fun herself. Still, she is obviously out to experience everything she can, and this is surely an experience for her, however it turns out.

The sky is just beginning to lighten to the east, so it really is Thursday. That means that my temporary single parent existence will come to an end tomorrow with C's return. I don't know when she and I will get to fuck, but I hope I can turn it into something special, using the 'long abstinence' as an excuse to indulge in a lot more foreplay, or afterplay, ie to begin the task of spicing the sex up between us as much as can be done without raising suspicions.

Friday I am set to see J for a couple of hours in the morning. So the tally for the last week and a bit will be, if I remember everything:

Thursday morning - J
Thursday afternoon - A
Friday morning - K
Friday night/Saturday morning - D
Saturday lunchtime - A
Sunday morning - D
Monday morning - A
Tuesday morning - D
Wednesday - nothing but phone sex with D
Thursday morning - K
Friday morning - J

This, I am pretty sure, is the busiest I have ever been.

Internet hook-up sites reviewed

Of the women I have hooked-up with for sex in the last several months, all but one I have met through Craigslist. D, I met through Lavalife - but Lavalife has produced what felt like near-misses, including S, who I have met and had lunch with, drinks with, etc but have not yet fucked. Ashley Madison, though it seems like it ought to be productive, has never really come through.

CL is crazy, freaky, and full of fakes and flakes. But A, who I think is about as perfect a hook-up as one could want (apart from the unmentionable distinguishing marks) is a clear example of a woman using CL to do exactly what I am doing, ie practice being a liar, cheat, and adulterer.

CL is free. As far as I can tell, a man would get nowhere on Lavalife or Ashley Madison without buying credits and using them to contact women. My profile on Lava has perhaps generated a couple of 'smiles' in several months; my profile on Ashley Madison has produced a couple of 'winks' and a couple of collect messages. Women, in other words, post their profiles and sit back and wait, while the men post profiles merely to give the women who they pay to mail something to look at to check them out.

D, my one clear Lavalife success, is an odd case, as she did not post her own profile anyway, but her friends did it for her. She did, however, vet the responses and pick me as a front-runner. And she has been a great mistress so far. But she would not post that sort of profile again, nor I think would she post in the 'Intimate Encounters' section of Lavalife again. So there is a sense in which she ought not to have been available to be found, as what she really wants is not casual sex but something a bit more romantic and emotionally charged.

Ashley Madison appears a bit raunchier than Lavalife, but it is very hard to tell what proportion of people are genuinely looking. The proportion of married/attached women is much higher than at Lavalife, but many of those are, I sense, merely flirting with the possibility of infidelity rather than actively pursuing it.

CL's high turnover makes it very addictive, and keeping up with the flood of posts can eat into your time significantly. The most frustrating thing is the very low response rate to e-mails sent to women who post. The lore that circulates is that many of the posts are fake - gay men, men collecting pictures, whatever. It is impossible to know how true that is. In my own case, I have perhaps been handicapped by using a picture that is unflattering - that at any rate is what A says, and I think D also said that I am much better looking in person than in that photograph. So I would perhaps have had a higher strike rate if I had a better picture. Perhaps I shall recruit A to take one for me - she seems willing to lend a hand.

I haven't done anything with men in a while, though I have toyed with the idea of having a blowjob every now and then, and CL is of course pretty good for that kind of hook-up. I used to think that men were almost always better at giving head than women, but D showed me that was not so, and I think A, with minimal instruction, could be almost D's equal.

But it is time to sleep now, as D will be here in the morning, for approaching six hours of sex, I would guess. As with J, I feel things with D ought to be winding down - but D does not think so, and the increasing mismatch between our moods and expectations is becoming a difficulty. I really would like to send her on to the next phase of her journey out of her miserable marriage and towards a more satisfying and happy life. But I suspect that all I can do in that regard, at the right time, is just to disappear from her life, at least for a while. And I don't think that is something that she will take as anything but a rejection.