Midweek update

It is just after 2.00 pm on Wednesday and the next few hours promise to be interesting - a woman whose name is Z is coming by my office, and then a hour or so later I am to meet L, who I have been in e-mail touch with for a little while, for the first time.

But you can only blog the past. On Monday A and I had a magnificent two hours at the Liberty Inn, in which for her the highlights were me picking her up and propping her on the edge of the desk to fuck her, whish she thought was probably giving her serious G-spot stimulation because of the angle. She had her feet resting on the bed behind me, so they weren't dangling, and I tried to come in thrusting upwards as much as I could. Her other pick - when I went down on her towards the end of the time, and did something - but I don't really know what - that felt really good, and tripped a walloping orgasm for her. And after that I was ready to come - that is, to orgams with ejaculation, as I had had a couple of dry orgasms at least earlier on.

Two hours could not be better spent.

This morning, D. We got stoned and had amazing sex for almost two hours, and then the guilt, anxiety, panic kicked in for me, the fearfulness in her. So getting stoned is great for the sexual sensations because it hyper-intensifies them; but unfortunately it does the same for other feelings as well.

But the sex is the relevant thing here. One amazing segment had me sucking her cock (she had the strap-on, with a new, smaller dildo, and in fact had already given my ass a serious pounding by the point). I fingered her cunt, looking for the G-spot but treating it as her ass, which I was fingering as I sucked her cock. She asked me to lick her clit, so then I moved into clit-work with my lips and tongue while keeping on with the fingering. But D wanted both her nipples pinched, so I tongue-fucked her as deeply as I could while pinching her nipples, and worked her cunt, her clit, her cunt again and on and on, and she was shuddering and jittering and trembling. Then I fucked her, supporting myself on the arms of the chair she was sitting in, trying to get as extreme an upward angle as possible in thrusting. She carried on shuddering while I fucked her, and the sensations along the upper side of my cock and around the head were unbelievably intense. It took a good long time to build to the big orgasm with ejaculation, but when it was obviously about to happen I pulled out and came on D's belly and chest, and because I felt like there was another ejaculation to be had almost right away, I then jerked off for about thirty seconds or so and came again, just a couple of spurts. I have no idea how long this whole segment lasted, and being stoned makes all such judgements unreliable. It might have only been a couple of minutes, or twenty.

I fucked her in the ass, she fucked me in the ass, I got a long blowjob, I went down on her again, we did a lot of kissing while I was fingering her clit - one thing after another, with a few breaks.

Then the guilt, the anxiety, the emotional distance kicked in, and I was powerless to use sexual passion to quell it. I must have ejaculated more in the space of two hours today than just about any time in my life. Who knew it would be like this in middle-age?

[Here are some excerpts from an e-mail written by D, recalling some of the morning's pleasures:

I sure did have fun with you in bed. And you, I bet you don't remember half the things that you were doing but I'm telling you, there was one part where you were kissing my lips for like twenty minutes and thinking that you were giving yourself a blowjob. You said you felt like you were licking your own cock and you were shuttering and going crazy.

Right before I fucked you you had a similar reaction. You were moaning and shuttering when I was feeling you with the skirt on. I was running my hands over your hard on and feeling your ass, tugging on my underwear and you were completely gone. Then I got to fuck you and I'm telling you I should have just switched the dildos without you even knowing because you were begging for me to fuck you harder. You love when I fuck you! I was happy that you told me that you taught me how to fuck... I should know how to do it so expertly if you have been my teacher. Certainly that fuck in the chair after my climax will go down in history for us.... That fuck was crazy, it was like being in a vibrating body... out of control you make me with that cock of yours.. all the way up , pushing away at me...

I really loved talking dirty to you when you were sucking and licking my clit. I felt like I was just saying the things that you were thinking.. so it was really turning me on and I just love pushing my pussy into your face and pushing my thighs into you. Especially looking up in the mirror and watching you and ofcourse looking down at your eyes peaking up...

We just love chairs don't we! We really know how to have fun in a chair.. why there is the chair at the XXXXXXXXXXX, the chair in your office in XXXXXXXXX, the chair in your study at home... the chair in your kitchen... and now with the discovery of the g spot, there will be alot more chair action. Boy your arms are really going to get pumped up! We could be looking at a new weight lifting hobby for you... somehow bird watching I don't think your biceps get bigger.

... I still want to kiss you and be a friend to you and fuck you and spread my legs for you so that you can stick one finger up my cunt, a thumb in my ass and tongue me the way you did this morning. That was definately another highlight for me.

Wish we could do a quick drive by Friday morning.. Don't blame me for being greedy with the way you fucked my brains out today and licked my pussy relentlessly. I am on vacation after all and I don't know anyone else that I do this stuff with. No one as good as my xxxxxxx. I'm such a wicked girl really....

I have to wipe up between my legs... I'm still dripping all over and you shot a wad of cum in my hair, there is a huge chuck that's all sticky! Your cum is all over me right now... just what you like... sending me away with your cum all over my body... by the way... I do love when you stare at me and when you told me that you just want to get me naked. It was so genuine.. you just can't help it.. I lust after you just as much and will be thinking about you.... D