Holding back

I do not know why I come much more quickly fucking C than fucking anyone else, but I suspect that it is a conditioned response. Once she has come she is done, and wants me to be done too. I give her what she wants. I get it over with because she wants it over with. Very often, I come with her. If I don't come with her, I fuck her until I come myself. These days, we nearly always fuck in a fairly standard missionary position, and I usually just stay on top and fuck myself to climax. But sometimes - and we used to do this more often - I will pull out and ask her to turn around so that I can fuck her from behind, a position that I find extremely pleasurable and that is very effective in helping me to come.

Women like D or Q who can come again and again, and who like to be fucked after they have come just as much as they like to be fucked before, elicit a quite different response from me. I give them what they want too, but as they don't want it to be over with, I don't do anything to get it over with. Perhaps this is also a conditioned response. When I do come, it is typically after a long, varied fuck, and my approach to orgasm is deliciously drawn out. the climax is itself very intense, and with D in particular, the synchronicity of our orgasms is precise and powerful. Sometimes, I can come two or three times close together - that is, I arrive at orgasm, ejaculate in a couple of spurts while planting my cock deep, and am able once I have done that to resume fucking, and ejaculate again a little later. This does not feel like multiple orgasm - though of course I do not really know what multiple orgasms feels like, so perhaps this is just how it feels. To me, it is as if one, large ejaculatory orgasm is divided up into a couple or three discrete sections. This is the product of a kind of self-control: by easing gently up to my own climax, stepping just a little closer to the edge with each thrust, I can stretch out the period in which coming is inevitable but I have not yet come. When I finally ejaculate, I try to stay still as the first jets of seed pulse through my cock, and this helps me to stay hard, to resume thrusting, to stretch out the orgasm and take me to another series of pulsing spurts of come. There is not much doubt that this is easier when I am dosed up with Viagra - another benefit of that useful compound.

I can fuck for a long time without coming, but this is not because I am good at 'holding back'. In fact, I am not very good at holding back at all. When it would be inadvisable for me to come, as it is with J or F because of worries (though slight ones) about conception, I sometimes find that I have to withdraw, in order to put more distance between myself and my own climax. But this kind of holding back is fun - not at all like the holding back that I used, in the days when I was a premature ejaculator, to attempt by thinking about the laundry, or my grandmother's Hummel figures, or the 'Paralogisms of Pure Reason' from Kant's first Critique.