A flurry of revelations has left me with no secrets from D. She knows everything. She has seen this blog. It is not yet clear to me what this means for the blog, nor is it quite clear what it means for D, or for me. But I am happy to declare my love for her here, and to give any readers - there are very few of them - notice that if things go as I hope they will go, there will be nothing for me to report besides run of the mill intra-marital sex with C and spectacular extra-marital sex with D.
It is weird to have no secrets from D. The last person I had no secrets from was MRR, twenty years ago. I have always had secrets from C. I have had, and still have, secrets from the readers of this blog. I do not think secrets are always bad, and they are often very good. But it is also good to have someone from whom there are no secrets. God is a good choice - Almighty God, unto whom all hearts be open, all desires known, and from whom no secrets are hid - but if God is not an option, as in my case, it must be someone else. The bond that I have forged with D through sex has rendered secrecy unacceptable to me. It remains to be discovered whether, with my heart now open, with all my desires known, and with none of my secrets hidden, I am acceptable to D. I hope so.
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ReplyDeleteIndeed it is. How did you know?
ReplyDeleteThe name is actually in one of your blogs with the messenger communication.
ReplyDeleteSeems like oxytocin did its job. Good luck to you guys, and your wife too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHdNCHomHlU
Cool song, Anon. And isn't that the purpose of the announcement in the song or blog ("I love her more than thee"), at least in part, to shame and hurt she/those who were not chosen?
ReplyDeleteYup, same old sadistic asshole, just a new technique of hurting those who have been good to him.
I hope your D has the good sense to take this newest development with a grain of salt (or a shaker). So much of what you describe about yourself makes you sound like a person who goes about inflicting a large amount of pain ( whether thoughtlessly, purposefully or unconsciously--I can't tell which is true). Pain for D, but also for F, J, and the rest of the letterboxes (I cannot remember).
ReplyDeleteHow do you account for the pain you cause? You may care about making things right with D, but what about the others? Do they not count? Are they less human, and less worthy of consideration and honesty, than she?
Also, how is telling your secrets to D something other than another way of hurting her, or keeping her on the hook?
I hope you will let this comment stand. I would really be interested in the answer, as the story told in the blog reminds me of someone I know.
thank you.
"you sound like a person who goes about inflicting a large amount of pain (whether thoughtlessly, purposefully or unconsciously--I can't tell which is true)":
ReplyDeleteYes. I bestowed a great deal of pleasure, consciously, purposefully, thoughtfully, hoping to offset the pain that I inflicted thoughtlessly or unconsciously, but rarely purposefully. Did I bestow more than I inflicted? I tried to. Sadistic asshole? I demur.
LCA:
ReplyDeleteI really dig the semi-literate supporter. Well, we takes our friends like we finds 'em.
But, Mr. Anonymous, have you noticed how carefully and well our LCA uses and chooses his words? Your support of him might have been a bit more meaningful had you demonstrated even a minimal command of the language. Just sayin'
As for the dispute between Mr. Anonymous and the other poster(s), both have their points, LCA, don't they? The women wanted to fuck. You hurt them too, because you wanted to fuck, but also because women's hearts and/or minds often (but not always) seem, sooner or later, and to a greater or lesser extent, to accompany their bodies. I do not think men are terribly different, except, perhaps, for you in this period of your life. Sex may be the reason for the relationship, but good sex, repeated often, often (but not always) creates a bond, whether it is purely a sexual bond or not.
Needless to say, I may be talking to myself as much as to anyone. I have never been able to casual about sex, any more than I am able to take sex seriously. Sex is play, but, when any good at all, it is play with physical, emotional and spiritual consequences, at least for me. LCA is a man of some intelligence and sensibility (think: smarter at an exponential level than all the anonymouses (anonymice?) combined). One imagines LCA has learned something from his experiences, if only about the intimate relationship between deceit and good sex and the risk of hurting (and sometimes badly and irrevocably) those one has it with. Of course, I could be wrong.
--Candy
Are we here to juge this man/
ReplyDeleteNo we are here to read about his sexual
exploits. We are voyeurs in his sex life
This man is a cad he admits that.We are here to read about his sexual exploits. We are voyeurs to his sexual activities.
ReplyDeleteGG:
ReplyDeleteI would describe your comment, gg, as immature.
It's great to be alut. To enjoy sex for what it is. But if you lie for sex (as LCA did) that isn't so great. There are (and were) plenty of people who would have been happy to fuck an intelligent, attractive man like him, even knowing the truth (that he is married, that he has multiple partners).
Is lying for sex okay with you, GG? Does the ass justifies the means? Anything that gets you laid is okay? Even if it destroys another person's family, for example? Even if it threatens one's children?
I'm sorry if your life has been so unkind, and/or that women have been so cruel to you, and/or you are so desperate for sex, that you feel it appropriate or necessary to say or do *anything* for sex. How powerless and desperate such people must feel.
I'm sorry, too, GG, if the only way you know to get what you want is deceit, regardless of tne consequences. And if the things you want are those that can be secured only by deceit. How sick such people are.
Tell me, GG, are you a mortgage broker? Used car salesman? Bernie Madoff?
--Candy
Candy you are not wrong. I guess it the way we look at sex.Is it physical or mental or both? Lca knows why he is fucking her and
ReplyDeletewe are not sure how she perceives this
relationship. You wonder how these women
would feel about knowing who he is fucking.
There is something blantantly erotic when fucks one woman and does not wash and he
lets ( makes )another woman taste the spunk.
Candy my dear,
ReplyDeleteI am a Vietnam Veteran who is a Health
Care Administrator. I spent two years in South
East Asia.I have faced death
and taken others lives. To me sex is for enjoyment. It sounds like your pussy and your mind have to be in love. With age and seasoning you might change your views.
I do not lie or cheat I have always explained
to my partners my intentions. I cannot judge LCA. We are all here for some viacarious
sexual excitement.
as alawys,
GG